She..

It is she..
It's been a long time since I met her. hung out with her.
Ya devi.. O she!
I felt she betrayed and broke my heart..
after 2002 it was over.
I left dejected, scorned from her door
I had who had loved her, felt her, danced to her tune in my heart.
Like those bharatnatyam dancers I so loved and wanted to become.
with the Bauls and mad mystics of Belur.
Hangin out with their chillums and Shiva's madmen.
It was me.
It was she.
I scorned.

Ya devi sarvbhuteshu..
Oh her, who resides in all beings
The beguiling dark one, who fights with Shiva and loves him too.
namastas-yeh..salutations to her
who is the infinite creative void,
the womb clad Digambari, nude one, clothed in space.
It is she, it is me.